"Mama, I don't know what I'll do when you die, I will be broken, you're the only family that I've ever known"! 😭
OMG this comment nearly made me choke on my mouthful of Christmas dinner. 😟
But believe me, the effect of those words that my boy sincerely spoke to me, not only broke through but smashed a cycle... my cycle of New Years Eve resolution failures. Previously, every single New Year Eve spurred on by fireworks and bubbles, I'd bring in the New Year with a raised glass and long list of resolutions, things that I will achieve by the end of the year. All these well intended goals and resets, are usually well forgotten by the next morning while grabbing sunglasses, pain killers & rushing out in search of coffee & any grease soaked or buttery treat to soak up the alcohol from the night before! Damn my healthy eating regime... lasted 6 hours! 😬Does this sound familiar??
Through Elijah's heartfelt comment at our Christmas table, it made me look at two things, including one immediate physical reaction ... loss of appetite!! 😒
- Seriously look at my lifestyle, & question what I need to do to live longer;
- How can I make changes in my life that lasted longer than 6 hours, 🤣 & how can I make them lifelong changes?
Asking these 2 questions also led to my resolve on how to make me successful when it comes to New Years resolutions.
For one, when making a resolution, I need to be emotionally connected to a goal. It must be charged with an overarching promise that not only involves me. Me looking after me, my wellbeing is driven by my passion to live longer for Elijah. Even though I have helped him develop to a young independent man, there are still other life lessons that I need to be able to help him through. I had thought that after 21 years of long service, my parenting days were over! But as mentioned in my first blog here, Oops I'm a parent, parenting is a lifelong career. 😮💨
